I’ve been intensely following the gun debate since I watched the post-Newtown NRA conference. Overall, I find myself getting pretty disgusted and as my FIL would say “worked-up” over this. I’ve witnessed people freaking because their “guns are being taken away” saying that the problem isn’t the guns themselves they are the “crazies” that shoot them and we need better mental health laws, etc. I can agree. But consider my argument. Most of these “crazies” are flying under the mental health radar, have no profile and maybe won’t until something like Newtown happens. And that’s too late.
I remember my first experience with a gun. I was 14.
“Ever played Russian Roulette?”
That’s EXACTLY what my boyfriend at the time said to me when he pointed a gun at my head. Don’t ask me what kind (I was a 14-year-old girl with no prior gun knowledge). And it’s kind of scary when you have a gun pointed at you, so I really wasn’t thinking about “Gee, what kind of gun am I going to die by today?” I was just hoping that whatever he was going to shoot me with didn’t have bullets in it. Phew. 20 years later…still thankful
Here are some interesting facts about him at that time.
- He didn’t have a gun permit. The guns, as I believe, were legal and owned by his father, who did have a permit for most of them.
- He didn’t have a record. I might have been his first record if the teacher that saw him throw me over a guardrail reported him. Or if the school administrator that saw him, grab and threaten to kill me in the school hallway had done more than suspend him for a day. Or if the police had taken my abuse complaint more seriously. But none of this happened, so no record.
- He had little to no mental health record. He had been diagnosed with FAS (fetal alchol system) at some point early in his life, but if you don’t tell a counsellor that you’re beating your current girlfriend or dont’t going to counseling at all, the mental health system isn’t going to work for you. You need to want help and you need to actually absorb the information given and help yourself for mental help to work.
- He rarely played video games, and when he did, they weren’t violent.
Now, I’m sure by now, he’s been arrested for something. You can’t do what he did to people and not eventually end up with a record. But I honestly don’t know. But let me be frank about my own mental health record.
- I have been hospitalized twice for breakdowns as a result of the abuse I received during this relationship
- I was diagnosed with PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder) as a result
- I’m currently undergoing psychiatric help, 20 years later to help deal with the trauma
- I’ve been seeing therapists, psychologists and psychiatrists for about 20 years.
- I still have flashbacks
- I was incorrectly diagnosed as bi-polar and took medicine I didn’t need for two years.
Now, according to this. Who would be less likely to get a gun? Let’s pretend he’s remained under the radar for 20 years. Because of him, I’m on the radar. Which means what? Most likely I would be denied a gun permit. He would probably be able to get one.
If he had an AR-15, I would be dead. My parents would probably be dead. Some of my friends would be dead. There is no doubt in my mind he would have come to high school one day and killed me. And the word that would have been used to describe the situation? Troubled. He was troubled. I was troubled. We were troubled. Troubled doesn’t BEGIN to explain the nearly 2 years of torture & abuse I suffered.
Sure, you can argue that this was an extenuating circumstances, etc. etc. But given that 25% of all women experience domestic violence in their lives and one in 5 high school students reports being physically or sexually abused by a dating partner, I’m thinking that there are a LOT of boys and young men flying under the mental health radar. Four million children between the ages of 9-17 suffer from a serious mental health disorder. And look at the profiles of mass-shooters themselves. They aren’t teenage girls, young women or moms. Most of the incidents in recent times are young males. Males who may be troubled. Males who aren’t getting help. Males who WOULDN’T get the help, even if it was available to them. How are you going to get help if you don’t think what you’re doing is wrong?
I have a six-year-old son. I think about the Newtown parents every day. And I believe things like assault rifles, armor-piercing bullets and high-round ammunition clips have no business being in every day society. I have seen the mental health system work. I have seen it fail miserably. But making weapons harder to get into the undiagnosed/unestablished/unrecognized “wrong” hands, is a really good start.